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'scuse my absence.
i've been off daydreaming.

"it's not enough to have lived. we should be determined to live for something. may i suggest that it be creating joy for others, sharing what we have for the betterment of personkind, bringing hope to the lost and love to the lonely." -- leo buscaglia


what is it that you're here for?
i think the obsessive planner in me is regarding my life's timeline with a sense of trepidation, trying to carefully plan each move, each decision, with the acute knowledge that the scenery is rapidly passing me by, and the FULL knowledge that my planning means shit in the long run. maybe this explains why i feel paralyzed.

graduation is supposed to be a time to celebrate the fact that i didn't jump out the window of a really tall building and actually went to class, but i'm terrified.
some days i feel like i'm the only one who doesn't know what the F*CK i'm doing with my life. i'm convinced that once i get started (doing whatever it is that i'm supposed to do), that everything will be suave, but it's a matter of pinning down that elusive PURPOSE thing. in the meantime, every day feels like i'm going through the motions, and it's frustrating. i know it will fall into place eventually. i'm just having an emo moment here.